Saturday, January 9, 2010

(it's personal), vol. 5

change. sigh.

fair warning: tonight is the night when i get slightly sappy and introspective and decide to share it all on this blog.

well, maybe not ALL. :) this is when i decide to share a small slice of what i'm trying to wrap my head around. it doesn't really have to do with my business or goals for 2010, although i am super excited about the weddings and events i've been booking for this new year. i'm finally completely caught up and settled from that crazy time in '09 where i was moving and beginning the first season of doing this full time and trying to balance everything and not feeling like what i was doing was adequate... although i'm sure it was :) i'm just rather hard on myself sometimes. trying to lighten up on that end and cut myself some slack, yo! anyway, RAMBLE RAMBLE, i'm so excited to try again! i had some great experiences with amazing clients and lots of travel in the past year- this year i'm thrilled to be working with the people i already have booked, eagerly anticipating meeting those i don't know about yet, and super pumped to apply some of the skills i learned and the ideas i have floating around my brain. it's gonna be a good year.

back to sappy introspection. :)

have you ever listened to a band called the weepies? they are charming, airy, and beautiful in the type of music they sing and the lyrics that they write. there's one song called world spins madly on that has one line which perfectly sums up what i'm feeling tonight:

the whole world is moving, and i'm standing still.

i know it's not, i know i'm not, but sometimes it feels like i am. for example, my baby sister. when did she go from this little ham trying to mimic every crazy thing i did:

to THIS!? a blonde bombshell with a husband and a home!

i just don't get it.

this past week two dear, dear friends of mine had their first baby, a boy. i'm SO excited to meet little jonah, and no one could be happier for them than i am. i just know that my friends are going to be amazing parents that will help & guide him through his life- but wait, wasn't it just yesterday (2+ years ago in actuality) that i was the maid of honor in their wedding? or wasn't it just last night that jonah's mom (his mom?!) and i were up all night in our dorm room chatting, eating, and "studying" for final exams?

i am a lot the same. not on the inside, but on the outside. a little bit older, a lot bit wiser, but the details are the same.

change is good. (deep breath.) change is good? change is good.

:) i'll keep telling myself that.


thezsfamily said...

change is good :-)
but sometimes a lot of change (or a few big changes) feels overwhelming, and we must take a minute (or day, or week) to catch our breath. and that's good too.

aubrey said...

i feel you. esp the unanticipated changes. i wish you lived closer so we could get coffee and catch up on life and help each other keep our balance :) c'est la vie. or rather, c'est la changes.

//nancy said...

thanks girls, for the empathy and encouragement. :) i'm glad both of you are in my life!

Anonymous said...

i just read your post and i loved it. that picture of us always makes me laugh so hard. don't worry, i still try to mimick everything you do :) love you